I know I'm not alone here.
There are millions of mothers out there that do what I am trying desperately to succeed in.
Work full time. Run a household. Be a loving wife. Be an involved mother. Take time out for myself to ensure that I am healthy inside and out.
And I am sad to report that I am failing. Terribly.
The first six weeks of me working full time, the household was running like clockwork.
Things were done.
Family was happy.
I had some me time.
The last two weeks it has all fallen apart!
The house is neglected. We seem to never be able to catch up and we are planning to renovate our bathroom, flooring and kitchen.
The kids aren't pleased. Corey especially is starting to show signs of unhappiness.
And I am actually worried as there are mental health issues on his fathers side.
Something we are watching closely but not sure how to handle.
Something that breaks my heart as I don't understand it and it hurts to see my little boy so unhappy.
Something that I'm not sure if it's just ten year old attitude or something more serious.
And I cant remember the last time I went to the gym or spent some alone time with my husband.
And I know many of you are reading this thinking "that's my life" and yes indeed it is life.
But how do we, especially us mothers, live it without being awake all night feeling so guilty?
Guilty for working, the house being untidy, not having enough time to play, for not being able to make it to assembly at school, for being tired, for running out of milk and bread and only realizing at 10pm?
Here's the boy - too serious and sad lately.
But still amazing beautiful.
Have a happy day.
Ange xx